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Life is complicated. Everything that goes into every decision we make is complicated; both consciously and subconsciously. Self confidence is one that seems to have a hold on me. I find myself filled with complex ideas I could achieve if only I put the concentrated focus on it. I also find myself with projects almost ready to launch but I'm holding back.

It's been a while since I listened to any music in a prolonged session, but today I've found myself with a background of ABBA for a while and loving it. ABBA were HUGE in the mid to late 70's which was a few years before my time as a music listener although my sister caught the ABBA bug. I only really found them after they'd split. They were remarkable on several fronts.

Responses elsewhere have led me to wonder what people think of me, and how I express myself. Sometimes we don't notice what we're doing until someone points it out to us. It's in this vein that I've decided to do the unusual; ask people directly. I would like constructive criticism anyone has of me. I am not interested in a flame war, or getting into arguments about "I don't do....." etc. This is about me working out how I can or should modify my behaviour.

I am not going to reply to comments on this post, merely publish them.

I've read it many times; starting is the hardest part. It seems to be the story of my life. I'm not talking about a short one-off something with the best of intentions to see it through, I'm talking about starting something and continuing it long enough that it gathers momentum in your mind that it does gradually take shape. In short I need to get my ass into gear, this post is a kinda explanation and a kick up the arse that I need to give myself.

Over the last few weeks I've found myself trying to do too many things, being caught up in some to the detriment of others, and all the while feeling my wheels are spinning but I'm getting nowhere. From the day I first got a PC until now, I've had various systems of files and folders with multiple copies of stuff in different structures with different names, backups of backups of backups of a lot of stuff I've never accessed in years and likely never will. I have been trying to work through that backlog. It's very time consuming but it's long overdue.